Friday, October 24, 2014

Let's Get Real...

So, for the past few days, I have been feeling the urge to just lay it all out there.  Not only because there are some things I would like to get off my chest, but also because I feel the need to explain a little more in depth about where my head’s at currently.  So if that interests you, feel free to continue…if not, adios amigo.

Most of yall already know my story, but for those of you that don’t – here’s a short version… I started this “journey” in February of 2013.  I decided to do something about my weight and health because I was sick of being uncomfortable.  I was tired of having to buy bigger pants, tired of not feeling attractive, and just wanted to be in better shape.  This is me when I started:

 
I joined Synergy Fitness Boot Camp in Austin, which terrified and excited me all at the same time.  Little did I know that walking in those doors would change my whole world.  I traded out my baggy sweat pants for yoga pants (first time in my whole life), I started eating vegetables…even the green ones (another first), and I started getting stronger.  It was a huge lifestyle change, and I guess I just wasn’t ready yet.  I quit everything in August of 2013, and reverted back to all of my old habits…eating cheez-its with cheese melted on top, icing out of the can, drinking wine, being lazy, hiding on the couch, and basically just stuffing my feelings down with food.  By the time January hit, I had had enough.  Even though I was nervous about the cost of boot camp, I knew it was what I needed.  So, I joined again.  And I have stuck with it.  I can’t believe that was almost a year ago already. 
 
 
I have learned a lot about myself over this period of time.  My first round of boot camp was exciting, fun, and interesting.  My body changed, I met new people, and I started to feel like a different person.  But, after quitting for a few months…I realized that I still had a LONG way to go.
This second round of boot camp is different.  This time, there is no finish line…I’m doing this because my health and happiness is a priority to me now…and I am changing every day.  I have FRIENDS, confidence, and I go after the things I want out of life.  

 
I’d love to sit here and tell you all how perfect I am all the time and only eat healthy and work out consistently…but that’s not the truth.  I have my ups and downs just like everyone else.  My relationship with food is a constant issue, which requires a ton of effort and focus for me every single meal, every single day (seriously, I could write a whole separate post on this).  There are weeks that I don’t care, don’t want to think, and I eat junk food and don’t work out (shocker!).  But these weeks always lead me right back to where I left off...why?  Well, for one thing – I hate the way that makes me feel.  It makes me feel like the old me.  I get all depressed, down on myself, and just am not in a good place. 
Eating healthy and working out truly makes me feel like a different person, and when I stray away from that - es no bueno.
That being said, I don’t want anyone out there to think that I am trying to put on a “hey look at me, I’m perfect at this healthy lifestyle stuff!” show.  That’s not why I started a Facebook page, and it’s not why I started this blog.  I started my FB page as a result of friends and family asking me questions all the time about what I was doing to lose the weight.  I figured that sharing what I do on a daily basis (what I eat, exercises I do, quotes that motivate me) would maybe help them in some way since they were interested.  That's why I post pics of food, recipes, and sweaty selfies all the time...This being healthy thing was all new to me not that long ago (and I am STILL learning), so I thought that if I could shed some light on my personal experiences – successes AND failures – then maybe I could inspire someone else to change their life.  It grew way bigger than I could have ever imagined, which I still can't wrap my head around.  I'm nobody special yall...just a plain ole girl trying to get the most out of life.  I'm no expert in living a healthy lifestyle, no personal trainer, or anything like that - I just know what works for me.  But hey, if I can help at least one person out there accomplish their goals or conquer their fears - then, mission accomplished.  :)
I started my blog because my awesome coach mentioned it to me.  I thought, “hey, I’ve never done a blog before but that sounds cool”-so voila…I made a blog.  It may not be the most organized thing in the world, but hey – it's all good.  It helps me keep my recipes in one place and also gives me the opportunity to look back and see how I have progressed.
I have no idea what the future holds for me, but I know one thing’s for sure…I like the direction I’m headed.  Yes, my life is crazy…
 
 
...but I love it.  I still haven’t figured out how to master juggling between a full-time job, owning a business, and everything in between – but I am getting there.  I may have banana peels on my floorboard, carry a million bags around with me every day, have a never-ending pile of dirty laundry, and flower petals flying out the windows of my car…but hey, it's my life.
A healthy lifestyle is not about perfection, it's about progress.  I'm a real person, with real issues, struggles, obstacles, time constraints, and stress just like you.  I just happened to figure out along the way that typing my feelings onto a screen is like some sort of therapy, so I share everything.  Not because I have to, but because I want to.  So, please don't judge me when you see my screw ups - I'm just keepin it real.  In conclusion, I hope that my IMperfect journey has in some way inspired you to chase your dreams and become who you really want to be!  Thank you for your support, taking the time to read this, and for hangin with me while I progress along this crazy journey!!!  
 

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