Monday, September 12, 2016

The Adventures of Cruising :)

Whoa, I haven't written a blog in forever.  I just reread the one I wrote from January...and so much has changed since then.  If you haven't been following my day to day posts on Facebook, here's what's happened in a nutshell:  

-lost  25 lbs.
-decreased body fat
-more working out
-daily tracking food


Looking at this progress pic and thinking about everything that's happened this year makes my eyes water.  I was so dang unhappy on the left, and super self conscious.  After months of weighing and tracking all my food, and a bunch of working out...I haven't hit my goal yet - but I'm a heck of a lot closer!

So, the hubs and I booked a cruise last year for this year - 8/28-9/4/2016.  At the time we booked it, I knew that I had a ton of work ahead of me in order to get to a place where I just felt comfortable.  I had that unrealistic goal of getting into a tiny pair of shorts and losing like 70 pounds...which didn't happen.  What did happen was a transformation from the inside out.  I signed back up for boot camp, and then for nutrition coaching a few months later.  I took things one day at a time, and focused on doing my best every single day.  Slowly but surely, the fluff started to disappear.  It's not all gone, but a big hunk of it is!  The months flew by, and then it was time for our cruise.


I totally listened to tropical music for about two months, and ate a lot of pineapple, all with the mindset that the cruise was almost here.  Not gonna lie, I was really nervous about the trip.  I had already decided that I was not going to be connected to the internet in any way, and that I didn't want to mess with logging my food that week.  So, I was scared that I was going to go nuts and just eat everything.   If there's one thing a cruise ship doesn't lack, it's food.  I'm talking pizza, ice cream, all you can eat buffets all the time, and so much more.  Food.  For.  Miles!  So, I had a semi-gameplan with the food:  focus on grabbing whole foods, avoid fried things, and don't eat a lot of sweets.  I wasn't perfect with this plan, but I didn't go crazy like I thought I would.  I stopped eating when I was satisfied, and I kept a stash of protein powder in the room to help me with cravings.  :)  That totally sounds weird to say.  If you had asked me a year ago what snacks I would bring for the room....I would've said cheez-its.  Now it's protein powder.  Transformation I tell you.

Anyway, aside from being pretty controlled with what I ate, I also managed to be pretty active.  The ship had a gym, which was really nice!
 We went to the gym together twice, which felt amazing.  It's so cool to be able to look out the windows over the ocean while you're doing squats.  Haha.  I stuck to the free weights, along with lots and lots of burpees.  Doing walking lunges was pretty funny due to the ship swaying.  :)  I tried to stick to upper body exercises because my legs had plenty of walking to do, so I didn't want to get too sore!

Speaking of walking...did I mention that there is lots of walking?  Yep.  Lots of walking.  :)  


We booked some really fun excursions on our trip...things that I wouldn't have wanted to do a year ago...

 The first stop was Montego Bay, Jamaica.  We had a big day ahead with ziplining through the jungle.  After coating myself in bugspray and putting on all the gear, I was ready to roll.


 I know, total nerd.  Hehe.  So, we were split up into groups of about 12, and we took off walking.  We hiked up hills and lots of stairs...which made me really grateful for boot camp.  Stairs and hills?  No problem, let's go!  

I had never ziplined before, so it was slightly frightening...but so fun!  I would definitely do this again!

Our next stop was in the Cayman Islands, and we had a segway tour/beach time planned.  We were in a small group of 7 people, and we all went to the segway office together in a tiny van.  Then, we had to put on all the gear and watch a training video, then go practice on the segways.  We took off down the streets of Grand Cayman, and ended up riding along 7 Mile Beach.  Then, we got to spend some time just chillin at the beach...such a fun day!!


Our last stop was Cozumel, which I was looking forward to the most.  We had a big day planned:  snorkeling with sea turtles, and snorkeling in underground caves.  Once the ship docked, we got off and got onto a ferry, which took us over to the mainland.  We were in a tiny van with 12 people this time, some of which were yankees (I'll get back to them later).  So, we rode to a beach where we snorkeled in the ocean for a bit and got to see a few turtles, which was really cool.  Then we headed to our next stop which was underground natural cenotes.  The water was cold and crystal clear...so neat!  After that, we stopped to eat and shop for a bit.  The tour guide gave us specific instructions on when and where to meet so we could all ride back to the ferry, and make it back to the ship on time before it left.  We all managed to meet on time, except for the yankees.  We were all sitting in the van, looking for them, getting slightly panicked with each minute that passed.  If we didn't make it back to the ferry in time, that meant we wouldn't make it back to the ship in time, which meant that we would all be stuck in Mexico while our cruise left without us.  Talk about stressful!!!!!!  Anyway, they finally made it back after being 20 minutes late, and we got back on the ship.  Phew!

Other than stopping at three places, we just had a ton of fun on the ship...so much to do!  Here's a few pics...and selfies:)
 
After we got back from the trip, I was sure that I had gained 10 pounds, but I ended up losing .8.  Crazy.  I guess all those naps and low levels of stress paid off!!     

This vacation was much needed, and so much fun!  I am now suffering from PCD (post cruise depression) and a severe lack of desire for Adulting.  :)  

...So, big lesson I learned on this trip...

There is no finish line to being healthy/fit.  It's a lifestyle, a day in/day out thing.  You can go on vacation and have fun without sabotaging yourself and your results.  It's okay to not be perfect while out of your normal routine.  Live a little.  Work smart.  Have fun.  Nap hard.

Can't wait till the next big adventure!!!! :)

 




 

Tuesday, January 12, 2016

Rock Bottom

Hi world.  It's been forever since my last blog post, and forever since I've done a lot of things I used to do.  So here I sit, in a comfy chair in the corner of Starbucks, ready to spill out a flood of emotions.  Why?  Cause I want to. 

For those of you that have been following me for the past few years, thanks for stickin around.  For those of you who don't know me, welcome to my roller coaster.  :)  

I believe that everything happens in life exactly when it's supposed to.  Just like the culmination of events that has made me realize today that I have officially hit rock bottom.  Not in life altogether, but in regards to my health.  I started noticing a few months ago that I had really let myself go.  I have been in complete denial.  When you sit on the floor and bend over to tie your shoes and think, "Whoa, where did that gut come from??"...that's a hint that you need to wake up.  A gut doesn't grow overnight, just like gaining a crapton of weight doesn't happen overnight.  

Somewhere along the way, I stopped weighing myself.  I also stopped looking in my full-length mirror.  I stopped caring about me.

I went on a hike with my husband and dad a couple of days ago.  I had every intention of it being a leisurely stroll in the wilderness, but that isn't what happened.  We hiked over 5 miles.  I. Was. Dying.  When we got to the top, the view was incredible.  My husband wanted to take a picture of me, and I kept refusing but he insisted.  So, I slapped on a fake smile and stood there.  I couldn't understand why he wanted to take a picture of me and my gross self.  As we started heading back, I noticed that I was having pains.  My knees, hips, and lower back were killing me.  I had a scratch on my arm from a tree.  I felt like crap, not only physically but on the inside too.  I realized in that moment that I had let myself get out of control.  I wanted to cry.  See - I used to be a firecracker, I could do anything.  Not now.  Now I'm like a dadgum blob with absolutely no self esteem.  I've gotten really good at faking confidence, but the truth is...I have zip. 



I never imagined that starting a business almost 2 years ago would change so many aspects of my life.  I can honestly say that 2014 and 2015 feel like one big blur.  I'm not even ready for it to be January.  My Christmas tree is still up yall, and yes - I still plug the lights in at night.  I've noticed that instead of me running my business, it has been running me.  My phone is dinging constantly with notifications...emails, social media, texts, calls...demanding my attention.  I went from working 40 hours a week to working non-stop and endless hours.  I'm very thankful that my business has grown so quickly, don't get me wrong...but being at everyone's beckon call constantly has worn me smooth out.  If you're always taking care of everyone and everything else, how are you supposed to take care of yourself?  Catch my drift?

So, for my own purposes of looking back on this blog one day for motivation, here's a list of things I'm tired of:

  • wearing the same clothes all the time because nothing else fits...but not wanting to buy anything new because I have a closet full of things I want to get back into one day
  • getting out of breath from hardly doing anything
  • having pain from bending over to tie my shoes
  • feeling insecure over stupid things
  • not wanting to be in pictures 
  • not being able to fit in the bathtub quite like I used to
  • feeling like I'm boring because I don't want to to as many active things as I used to
  • my bra cutting into my back and doubling my amount of existing rolls
  • hiding on the couch
  • not liking my reflection
Here's the thing.  I'm not willing to spend another minute feeling like this, and honestly - I don't have time to.  I'm turning 30 this year.  I'm going on a cruise at the end of August, and I refuse to spend it hiding behind a layer of fat.  Also, I want to do more fun things with my husband this summer - things that I can't do at my current weight.  I can't keep waiting for life to slow down so I can start up again, because it never will.  

I'm approaching this with a different mindset this time.  I'm choosing to keep it simple and stop expecting perfection out of myself.  I'm going to change my eating habits and move more.  I'm going to make taking care of myself a priority again.  That's it!


So, tomorrow is Day 1.  Day 1 of digging myself out of this hole I ate myself into.  Day 1 of getting my confidence back.  Day 1 of becoming the person I want and deserve to be.  I'm starting over for the last time.